Day 8

DAY 8:

I can't believe that Kalijah turned a week old yesterday. All my days have ran together and it feels like we've been waiting forever to take our baby boy home. They had taken his first tube out but there was still a leak so they had to put a different tube back in. This one is under his left side and a little bit bigger but is suppose to be better. He had it put in Friday around 3:30 AM and last night around 11:00pm they turned it off and since then he hasn't had a single leak and is doing good. If he goes 48 hours without any leaks or problems they will be taking the tube out and he will be able to come home within a few days after doing so, as long as he is doing well. We got to see him today and he is doing good. They said his x-ray was very good and showed no signs of pneumonia and he has been eating from a bottle and has only had tylenol once since they put the new tube in. We are praying that the leak in his lung has healed and will not come back and that he will soon be able to come home.

I know that the Lord will not give us more than we can endure. This has by far been the hardest trial I have ever had. I feel so helpless but have been able to find comfort in knowing that this is in the Lord's hand and I've had my faith to get me through the hardest times. It has been a week full of ups and downs and a rollercoaster of emotions. It seems just as you think life seems to be going to good to be true it is just that. Reality comes in and an unexpected trial comes out of no where. It is so crazy because recently we had been talking about how lucky we were to have such healthy boys and had been praying every night that Kalijah would arrive healthy and strong. I know that my father in Heaven has a plan for my family and my sweet baby boy. I know that there is a reason we are going through this trial right now, and even though I may not fully understand it I have faith that it will all work out how it is meant to be. I have grown so close to my Heavenly Father this week and I can't imagine the pain he endured giving his only begotten son so that we could have the atonement in our lives. I cannot say how thankful I am for my parents and my husband. Russ has really been a constant support and rock for me through this time and we have grown even closer together. I cannot imagine my life without him. My parents are always there for me and my family doing whatever they can to help. They have helped so much during this time and have spent lots of time with Kayson and Krehl so that we could be there for Kalijah. It is nice knowing that when we are away they are in loving hands. I have a very peaceful feeling about everything and am not as scared as I was a few days ago. Will post some pictures tomorrow. Thank you for the prayers and support.