Day 3: Trials & Unanswered Prayers

Day 3:
Today I am thankful for trials and unanswered prayers. Since I was a little girl I dreamed of the day I would meet my prince charming and be married in the Temple, and that it would last forever. 8 years ago today I was promised that I would be taken care of and loved forever, through the good and the bad. Just 8 months ago that same person who promised to love me forever no matter what broke that promise and shattered my dreams. During the process I prayed so hard that things would be different and that somehow everything could work out and that we would not get divorced. There were so many emotions I felt and so much pain, I couldn't understand why God was not answering my prayers and did not know how I would ever make it through this trial. At the time I could not understand why everything was happening, I think I was blinded by my emotions. But God was listening and he did have a plan for me I just needed to let go and trust in him. The first few months were very hard, but as time went by and I began trusting in my Heavenly Father everything fell into place. I had lost so many things along the way the past 7 years. I was constantly tore down and had lost myself. I asked myself over and over again why I didn't leave that situation sooner, and looking back I wasn't ready. This last time I felt I had put everything into it and I was finally strong enough to leave. I am so glad that I was strong enough to take a stand and make a new start, a better start for my boys and I. I have grown so much these past 8 months and have learned so many things, but most importantly I am truly happy now and I can honestly say I am content with who I am. If I could go back in time I would do it all again because I was blessed with 3 amazing boys and that I would never change. I have grown so much and developed a very personal relationship with my Heavenly Father and Jesus. I am so thankful for that relationship and for prayer, they have truly been my saving grace. I have learned forgiveness, patience, and my faith has been strengthened. I have learned who my real friends are and have been blessed with an amazing supportive family. I could not have made it without all of them. I have also met some amazing people that would not be in my life now if things had happened differently. I have learned that the Lord will not give us any trial that is beyond our strength to endure and if we endure and continue to have faith and we are patient we will be blessed beyond measure. I have learned to just take things one day at a time and with time my heart has slowly but surely started to heal. I am so thankful for my trials. God did answer my prayer just not in the way that I thought. Everything is working out for the best and there is so much constant peace and happiness in my life that hasn't been for such a long time. This is one of my favorite songs... He Will Carry You